DREAM.

Those are some pics of my friends and I on friday, and the first one on my birthday :)
I can't believe im 14, it's not really a big deal, but 13 is actually REALLY young. And I thought I would be mature by then, but im still acting like my 13 year old self. Then next year im 15 and that's a big number because time passes by SOO fast. Anyway, sorry for not posting for a while! I have a 10 day off of school, it's a Muslim Adha Holiday, Happy Eid if anyone is celebrating! Im not, but thank God our school gave us 1o days! Because the boarders need to travel and stuff.
So..sory abou the bad quality in the photoss hahahahhaha. Speaking of cameras and qualities, im thinking of not getting the SLR cannon because Im not in phototgraphy, so why should I get it? So I'll get a regular digital one :)
So on Friday we had a school trip, we were supposed to go to the ceders which is 2 hours long, but it was raining so we went to Jeitta Grotto. It's nominated to be one of the 7 wanders of the world. We just need to vote  A LOTTTT. in order for it to win, it's so close to winning though. But anyhoo, i really dont care to be honest. hahhah
So yeah, and we went last year in June so it wasnt so fun, because it felt like i went twice in a row. You know?
But anyway, then we went to burger king. WHAT A FAIL. The chicken was like raw and juicy. If i took a bite, like it would melt in my mouth because of how soft it is, and how gross it was. As long as I had fun OUT OF SCHOOL, hahaha. Then Aya and Tiana came over, then and hour later Maria and Katy came. It was akward because Aya and tiana arent friends with Maria, they had an argument. But all went well. This is a photo in the crappy bus on our way through the trip :) yeah..ignore those 7th graders that had to stay ion our bus. hahahahahhaha

I look at people, they go out every single weekend at night, they leave the house at 10 and arrive at some late time, and I go to sleep at 8PM.
Im the only one who has no phone. Im not really the skinniest person out there..neither the prettiest. I could marry Math if I could, that’s how much I love math. Totally the opposite with science. I hate science.
Indigo is my favorite color! I love Lady Gaga, if only I could meet her one day.
I am attached to my radio, it’s on 24/7. My nails can never be plain.
I’m kinda of weird. I see the world different then how anyone does.
I live in my imagination. I dream.
I love photography and look at the photographers work, it’s so lovely to see how they creative people can be. I have never thought of me being a photographer, im never into it. Although I do like taking weird photos! I am a tweetaholic. Im open about a lot of things to strangers, I feel like they can understand me more. But ofcourse I have to be careful to certain strangers. I love to sing. My dream is to be in a musical. That is ONE of them. I love vintage, I don’t think I have a certain
style in fashion. But fashion is so important to me, It is really. I dont care about brands, I care about the crativity in my clothing that is on me. I laugh too much, no joke. I love to laugh, I hope I’ll be living for a loooooong time, that is what people say… Laughing makes you live longer. Im really serious and deep when It comes to life, you HAVE to live it so carefully, you can’t mess up, you can make mistakes, it’s natural. just don’t waste on second.
I have low self-esteem. Last year It was abnormal of me to cry because of it. I though I was too fat and ugly. I was set up with 5 boys last year, because my friends wanted me to meet guys because I was literally the only one who hasnt had a boyfriend yet, it didnt work out. It’s probably because I was too lame and talked a lot, which I didnt actually do that time, and maybe because I wasn’t the type they wanted.
No one knows what boys want. Only God does. Boys are such assholes.
Even my guy friends tell me im fat..AND IM NOT! Im just not skinny. I have to stop trying to impress boys by fixing myself TOO much.
Im so keen to be skinny.
I lost 5 kilos over the summer. I gained 2 kilos since september, how stupid of me. I’ve been staying home and all I’ve been doing is watching romantic movies and eating my ass off. Im such a pig, seriously.
I’ve never really had feelings for a guy. Only like that crush, like ‘oh he is so cute’ and shit. I’ve always wanted to have that love kick, while you have that first kiss.
Which! I had suring the summer. It was a dare. Holy..it wasnt the way I expected my kiss to be. It was at a party, and I totally saw it coming! They dared me to kiss my guy friend, we arent so close, but like he is a really nice guy. not the prettiest. but he’s nice. We had to kiss like 3 times. It was so awkward.
Those moments when you want to feel special, like you’re the most special girl on the planet. Every guy does that. They make you feel beautiful and special. But no..they don’t mean it. I know a girl who is dating, and her boyfriend told my friend that he iis dating her for nothing, that he likes playing with girls. It’s not suprising though. Everyone tells me that teen boys do that, they dont give a damn about love and stuff. it’s only for the fun and playing and that girls mature fast. I really dont know..who cares. My favorite season of the year is autumn. i just love it. it’s cold yet sunny and sometimes it gets warm, and the leaves turn red and yellow and ah, it’s really nice. Summer is my second favorite. Except when it comes to the point that I have to swim and wear a swim suit. I hate showing my legs and stomach in a swim suit, but i end up having so much fun.
Im beginning to be a book worm. I HATE reading, until this year, I spent literally a week spending my breaks in school in the library reading! It’s so unusual for me. It depends on what books I read. If it’s adventure, im really picky, it depends on what kind of story it is. Love stories are a definatly my favorite.
Ive been reading the last song, i was close to finishing it in two weeks, but then i returned it, and then i got it again like two days ago, and im going to continue it. The movie itself is so beautiful and amazing, but reading the book makes my mind open about it more. I blog, I love to blog, it’s like my public diary. speaking of diaries, i own one. yes i do. I tend to call it my journal. I put pictures in it, ofcourse I write in it, and a doodle in it.
Oh yeah, i didn’t mention. Im a forteen year girl who loves life.